The Count Down

As my 30th birthday approaches I find that I am having many interesting conversations with people about turning 30. Most people are asking if I am ok? LOL this simply makes me laugh. I think the fact that people ask you if you are ok is what makes you question if you are ok. I never thought I wasn't ok until you asked me that. hmmm... LOL well I am ok :)

One of the conversations that I had with several of my students (girls) that are 19. I asked them where do they see themselves in 10 years. Mostly this got responses of married and starting a family or already having a family. This made me think back to when I was 20 and where I thought I would be. I guess my thoughts were very similar to theirs. I honestly thought that I would be one of the first to marry of my friends and start a family. I thought this mostly because when I dated someone it was always serious. I never held back my feelings. I would simply jump into the deep end! I guess you can say I love with my whole heart, mind and body. But what I have learned is that I have been burned a few times for this however I don't see this as a part of me that will change. I may become a little more guarded but without risk there is no great reward. Life is sometimes meant to be scary. If we knew what was coming next we all would be flat lined of emotion and I NEVER want to feel that way.

In the end I told the girls that I am excited to be 30. I have no regrets and I have accomplished things that most people my age have not. I gave up two years of my life for service to live in the woods with at risk teen girls, I then dedicated a year to a group home where I was the house mother to 5 teenage girls who needed guidance, I have TRAVELED to many places, I have traveled alone and found peace in that, I have learned to pick my friends well (no more mean girls!), I am educated and continuing :), and mostly I have learned to love and take risks! I am secure in who I am and it feels great. So I can't wait to see what adventures my 30's will bring.