Great friends!

This past week has been a whirl wind of events and fun! I can only credit all these great times to my friends Melissa and Tony that came to visit this past week and Melissa's brother James and their friend Josh. There were many more people to credit for such a great week but those people are the ones in the pic. We are gathered at Harpoon Brewery for Harpoon Fest where we were drinking for the end of the world ;) LOL.

Well, through all the crazy night of going out and drinking, sobering up and drinking some more I learned this, that I am so incredibly lucky to have such a great group of friends were I can simply be ME. I believe that to be priceless!

Been awhile

Well it's been awhile... Lots has happened but of all things that have happened is my brother has passed away. He died on Nov. 11th and it has been an emotional roller coaster since. But what brings me to write tonight has to do with space. My space/personal space! A close friend of mine asked me if I was homeless the other night. I was so taken back by this comment that I felt hurt. That of course wasn't their intentions but all I could think was wow I am never in my place nor do I have friends over. I also started to think about why is this the case. My conclusion is that I don't want to be alone at this time in my life and that may be why I avoid staying at my own place. Since the news of my brother I haven't spent much time in my place. Do you think this is me avoiding emotion? I think that is possible. So today I reorganized and cleaned my place, trying to make it feel more like home and a place that I would want to spend time. Truth is at the end of the day I still wish I wasn't alone. I don't mind it but right now it is just nice being around friends and people that you care about. I guess I am afraid. I just don't want to miss a single moment.